Balance

Im feeling sad today, don't know why. I think it started with the last leaves falling at my "go to photo shoot spot" tonight... things aren't beautiful anymore, another long Windy, Casper Winter to look forward to:(

I miss home, it's been 7 years. I try to stay positive but sometimes it just really sucks, it really does.

I miss my Uncle Peter who died a year ago, I wish some things could just always stay the same... like my mom being healthy and not having to deal with the HORRIBLE, awful disease of MS that sucks her strength and muscles and energy and patience away.

It's just been a bad week. We all have them. I can't seem to do anything right this week. My laundry never quite gets done, the house never quite gets clean, the kids seem to be fighting a lot, the puppy is always biting or scratching someone, Taylor doesn't like me right now, we got a bill for $1300 for property taxes that weren't included in our escrow, Ely's new CJ-7 wont starrt, I melted the kids Halloween candy (see pic below), never ending editing and it seems like every time I opened my email it was a client asking me to do something different to their pictures to make them "better". Totally goes with the job but sometimes when it's your art, it feels personal.

Im overwhelmed with "balancing" everything right now. Im trying to accept that just doing a little bit each day is ok.

And I've decided that I need to take and post pictures of my kids here, like I used to before it got crazy. I need to feel that passion again.

Tomorrow is a new week right????



As I posted on Facebook-
MOTHER OF THE YEAR AWARD goes to me for preheating the oven and forgetting I had hid the kids Halloween Candy/Plastic Pumpkins in it. COMPLETELY melted the pumpkins and candy.... Halle, who LIVES for sugar was HYSTERICAL even with all my promises of buying more candy and my hasty effort in making pumpkin cookies.